Moments like butterflys

My butterfly is out of focus

kind of like life right now

I find myself wishing I could change things

but knowing I can't

I try to capture moments

remember past moments

and hope for future moments.

My mother is now in hospice care

She's my first thought in the mornings

and

the last at night.

The moments we share now are

me trying to be sure she is comfortable

and

that I'm there to talk to her.

To listen to her talk about the early

days

with my dad.

All those moments we've shared.

The moments are flitting away like a

butterfly

out of focus but you know it was there.